SORRY (ALT TITLE: WHY DO MY BELIEFS KEEP CHANGING)

So it appears I can’t make a blog about any of my beliefs because if I do then they miraculously change and I’m left in the position of deciding whether or not to continue the blog. Ugh.

Basically, I… well, I’ve become a radfem. And therefore my views on trans people are a bit different. I will still absolutely respect you if you are trans and use your preferred name and pronouns, but I no longer deny biology. I know that I’m female. Dysphoria doesn’t change that.

There are trans radfems, who transition to cope with dysphoria. And there are others who have dysphoria but decide not to transition. As for me… I honestly don’t know. For now, I think I’m going to stop identifying as trans for a while, at least until I figure things out. So… sorry. If you’ve followed my blogs you’ll know that I say that a lot… but still.

If anyone wants to take over the blog, feel free to. I might post the occasional update, but apart from that the blog will stay pretty silent. After only a few posts, too. It’s a shame.

I had a few other ideas for posts which… I might make? But they’ll be more focused on the LGB side of things, rather than the T.

So see you guys around.

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MY STORY

[NOTE: Sorry for not posting for a while! I’ll try and post every two weeks or so as I don’t have that many ideas for posts. So, uh, if you have any ideas or want to share your own experiences then please tell me! Anyway, onto the post.]

As you probably know, my name is Oliver. I run CHRISTRANS. And this is my story.

I wasn’t always pro-LGBT. A few years ago I was pretty homophobic and transphobic – and proud of it. Because after all, I was in the right! If people wanted to call me homophobic for speaking the truth then I would embrace the label!

Sigh.

I knew I was queer, but always dismissed it as ‘just a sin I was struggling with’, dismissing all the pro-LGBT arguments I’d heard without ever really considering them. But one day that changed. I thought to myself, ‘Hey, maybe I should actually check out the other side’s arguments more fully!’ And that I did.

I went onto the GCN website and looked at the two essays it had there (unfortunately they’re not up anymore), one for both sides of the debate. And I read them through. Then I read them again. And again. And finally I came to the conclusion that maybe being LGBTQ wasn’t a sin after all!

Then other things started to change.

I became a theistic evolutionist, when I had previously been a young earth creationist. I became a lot less conservative in general when it came to my faith. I realised I was trans, in addition to being queer. And I left Christianity.

I guess the way I phrased that sounded like I stopped being a Christian because I became more liberal. Which isn’t true. I was happily Christian for around six months after I became an evolutionist and two months after I realised I was trans. Heck, my faith was probably the strongest it had ever been in the month leading to my departure. No, it was something else. To this day I’m still not sure why I left. I always tried to justify it to myself by saying that the church wasn’t welcoming and had hurt me, which I guess was kinda true? But not really. At least, not to the extent that I made it out to be.

Anyway, I went through loads of different religions over the course of around five and a half months. The longest lasting one was Mudoranism/Paganism in general (around 3, 4 months?) but I also tried athiesm (not really a religion but bear with me), Judaism, Islam, Bah’ai, and Sikhism. I also made a couple of WordPress blogs (which are still up, actually) about these different faiths. But in the end, I returned to Christianity.

I still struggle with my faith, and forget to pray, and don’t read the bible as much as I really should. But I feel secure in my identity. Finally. And honestly, I think those five and a half months were useful in their own way. I learnt more about faiths which I didn’t know much about before. And I can now truly say that it was my own decision to be a Christian, as opposed to just being raised one and sticking with it.

So, that’s my story. What about you?

FOR WE ARE ALL ONE

There’s one verse in the bible that really sticks out to me as a queer Christian.

It’s found in Galatians 3. Verse number 28. And to me, it’s revolutionary.

“There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.”

Just take a moment to think about that. There are many ways to interpret this verse, but no matter which way you do it, one thing shines clear in this verse: We are all one. We are together. But that’s not all. I think it goes deeper than that, and to figure this out we’re going to have to take a trip back through time….

*insert Doctor Who music here*

There are three main parts to this passage (well, four, I guess, but let’s just say three for now): ‘There is neither Jew nor Gentile’, ‘neither slave nor free’, and ‘nor is there male nor female’. I’ll go through them all one by one.

1. THERE IS NEITHER JEW NOR GENTILE

You’ll see a theme as I go through each part, as I think they all provide an answer to many (read: three) church controversies. And the first controversy happened around the time that Paul was writing. In fact, he spoke and debated about the subject. Actually, two subjects: whether or not Christians should be circumcised, and whether or not Christians have to be Jewish.

He argued that neither of these things were necessary, and that’s also shown in this verse. If there is neither Jew nor Gentile, then it doesn’t matter! Christ died for all of us! In fact, the passage that this verse is contained is in saying exactly that:

So in Christ Jesus you are all children of God through faith, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise. – Galatians‬ ‭3:26-29

In other words, if we belong to Christ then we are one. If we belong to Christ, we are all heirs to the promise, Abraham’s seed. Christianity isn’t exclusive to a certain group of people. Jesus is for all. He doesn’t discriminate based on race, or gender, or anything.

2. THERE IS NEITHER SLAVE NOR FREE

Which brings us into the next part of the verse. Neither slave nor free.

Slavery was hugely controversial in the church in the 17th and early 18th centuries. Many churches just went along with it and let members own slaves. And many others didn’t.

But if you read this part, it’s clear: Hey, maybe you shouldn’t treat black people like subhuman beings! We are ALL human and all deserve respect.

3. THERE IS NEITHER MALE NOR FEMALE

Finally, onto the bit that addresses a large controversy today. Namely whether or not being LGBT is a sin.

I feel like the whole debate centres around gender. You can only be attracted to this gender. You have to be this gender. There are only two genders. Gender, gender, gender. And it’s a bit tiring, to say the least.

But hey, what if it didn’t matter? What if gender was this irrelevant label that had no effect on your personality? What if churches cared more about worshipping Jesus than forcing people into gender roles? That’s exactly what this is saying. There is no male or female, because we are all one in Jesus’ death. I’ve said this a lot, but only because it’s super important. Our identity in Christ is more important than forcing people to hide themselves.

So there you go. There’s my interpretation of that verse:

We are all equal.